I have so much that I need to catch up on in the blogging department. Not only did we have an awesome Thanksgiving, but there is also the Black Friday shopping, the train trip to Chicago, and a few other things. However, I am feeling emotionally weak these days and needed to take the time to get some things from my mind onto the blog, as that always seems to help things.
So, here it goes. I'm sad. I miss Olivia so much these past few weeks. I'm sure a lot of it has to do with the holidays. I have been coming across so many things that she loved and so many things that I know she would love if she were still here. I've been talking about her a lot lately. Don't get me wrong- I love, love, love to talk about Olivia. I also wonder if it's partially "the time" during the grieving process that I am supposed to feel like this. There are moments that go by that it seems like Livvy has been gone forever and other times that it seems like I head up to the hospital to see her. I don't know. It's a really strange feeling. One that I'm actually not too fond of. I do know that this weakness I'm feeling will definitely make me stronger in the end, but I'm ready any time now! I'm sure it's just one of those seasons of life...and death...that we will continue to go through as time passes.
Hopefully, today or tomorrow, I will find some extra time to blog about all the exciting stuff going on around here...there's lots to tell! Anyway, a few extra little prayers for comfort and strength couldn't hurt...
5 years ago
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What I wish I would have said to you when I actually got to see you face to face is that: "I pray for you everyday. I remember everyday. I wish there was something I could do...everyday!! I think you're amazing and you're doing a great job with Jack and Brooklyn."
I'm so sorry you have to walk this road. So sorry! We love you guys and think of you often even though we're in a different time zone :)
Extra prayers coming your way during the holiday season.
You are always in our thoughts and prayers. We miss seeing you at church in Macomb and think of you and your family often. I think you are amazing and a model of strength. You have handled all of this far better than I could have ever imagined. The holiday times are always the hardest I think after a loss of a loved one. Just know that many people are thinking of you and praying for all of you daily. Take care. The Quinn family
Julie,
We pray every day for you and your family! Hope you can feel those prayers coming your way!
You are amazing!
Jen Weber
Julie,
Know that you, Zac and the kids are in my thoughts and prayers often! Every time I pass her photo in the unit I think of the lessons I learned from her and from your family. I will continue to lift you up in during this difficult time !
Sarah PICU
Thinking of you every day and praying for you...you may feel weak, but we all know that you are very strong. Olivia's smiling face is hanging in my office, along with a picture of 4 muddy friends after digging up Zac's flowers.
Take care,
Teri
Certainly...extra prayers are no problem!!
Kara
Oh, Julie...dear dear Julie. If only we could get a glimpse into heaven and see what those who have gone ahead of us are doing. It would cheer us. But we must wait our turns. As I pray for you and the gentle comfort that will come to you, I remember JoAnne Dittus, too, as her only daughter went to heaven on Christmas Eve last year. Anne and Olivia are basking in the glories that only heaven can provide. I thank God that you and JoAnne brought your daughters to be children of God through baptism. May the Holy Spirit lift you up and give you a peace that passes ALL understanding. Love you, Diny
Julie--I think that you have spent sooo much time being strong for Olivia that feelings of weakness probably feel very unusual to you. I think anyone else in your situation would have already spent much time feeling weak, but you always seemed to stay positive through sooo much. Maybe it's time for others to baby you for awhile until you feel strong again. Your "Amazing Mother" award is in the mail...have you received it yet? Wish we lived closer...I'd take you out for lunch and CHOCOLATE! Miss you guys alot...I have Olivia's "cover girl" calendar hanging proudly in my office at home and think of her often. Love and Prayers, Laura S.
I am going through the exact same thing this time of year with losing my husband. I am weepy and usually don't know why. It's not a memory or a picture that does it. I'm just going about my business and it comes over me. I figure, like you it's part of the process. I have a good cry and feel stronger after. Friends and family get me through it and I'm able to enjoy the good things with no regrets. Keep the faith. It has done you well.
Cathy Gibbs (Suzanne's friend)
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